Life is Great with Betsey Johnson

Fall 2011 Show Countdown – Finale Flower from Betsey Johnson on Vimeo.

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Chinese New Year+New Attitude & New DO=A New Me

 

Okay, can I just say I am so thankful for a New Year Redo! Woooohoooo!! Thank you China, I was in total need of this.  What is it that we women normally do before the new year? (any holiday for that matter)We Pamper ourselves, go get our hair done and our nails did, lol, and GO SHOPPING!!!!!! Heck I’ll use any excuse I can to go shopping, shoot I don’t even need an excuse, I go shopping just because it’s one of the things I’m BEST at. Fashion is the one thing that makes things better. It’s always changing and you can express yourself any way you feel. There’s no right or wrong way in Fashion.  Now there’s the do and don’t list but  you’re free to express your style in your own way. To each his own!

So, what did I do You ask? My cousin called and was going to get her hair done so I said, hey can she fit me in? Sure enough she said come on in, so I did and I told her to ‘Surprise Me, I’m in need of Inspiration’, just do whatever! (pretty gutsy I’d say) But, I LOVE IT! Now I’m a New Woman ready to start my New Year! This time my friends I’ve got a New attitude to go along with it!  I’m no longer gonna be that doormat everyone decides to stop and wipe their feet on before they decide to walk all over it! I’m sticking up for myself and going to put forth an effort to be an even stronger person.

 

It's Short!!!!!

Since things didn’t quite turn out the way they were originally planned at the start of my new year I figured this was a sign.

Starting over gives me a good reason to reevaluate the issues that have arisen since the old New year and to figure out a new concept of dealing with specific “issues”. The “issues” that in turn damaged the start of what was to be a New Life for me, putting to rest the years of added stress and anxiety. We were to move to a new house where we were going to start a New Chapter, it was to be a new journey in the Book of Life‘s many Adventures. Well, that hasn’t quite happened and it’s actually been the exact opposite, kinda like a Black Hole where you can’t see the end, it just keeps going and going and going. But from this day forward, I am a New Woman!
Here’s to the Year of Great Prosperity and Good Luck!!

 

 

My life is Challenging…I’m Trusting the Path God put me On.

 

My life right now feels like the weather forecast for NYC.  I’m trying so hard just to get that one foot in front of the other, but there’s some days where it just isn’t feasible.  I say it’s not feasible but the POSITIVE  person in me still manages to do so!!! I just can’t seem to figure out why it is that I’m still living sometimes, how the HEll is my heart still going? The lack of its proper function for 24 years is mystery in itself.   If my reason for being here still is to be this example to others that’s great I just would like to have the feeling of “accomplishment” someday.  I just want one day, that’s all I ask for is ONE day where I can do something I’ve always wished for and do my BEST knowing that I accomplished that goal I had always set out to do. Even if that day Never comes, I still put a smile on my face and …carry on!
Jammies & a SMILE!
As I’ve heard it said, “Being challenged in life is inevitable, being discouraged in life is optional!”  It’s up to us to choose the right road. When a person has bad health such as I do I have to admit I do get discouraged at times and mourn the life I never got to experience. I just need to always remember never to allow it to dictate my life. I know God will not give me anything I can’t handle, I just wish he wouldn’t trust me so much.
I absolutely love the post that Loren Ridinger did on her blog today; it is “Trusting the path we’re on. There are a million paths we choose throughout life.”  Loren is definitely my new Favorite Inspirational Woman!  She is incredibly talented, successful and a Great example on how to be a Strong Woman in today’s world. You Go Girl!  I have to also give a shout out to Loren Ridinger’ Fan on Twitter. If you don’t follow her tweets you should.
Well I feel better already! Like I call my blog, God4LifeFASHN4therapy I even think my blood pressure may have gone down. That’s my cue to go check it, it’d be nice to be able to give a decent BP report at least once today.  And this People out in the Blogospherethis is Why I Blog, it helps my health! Heck whatever I can do to not have to add anymore pills to the huge amount I already have to take I WILL DO!

In Loren’s Words… “Take charge of your REALITY”

 

WOW!

All I can say about Marissa Miller on Ellen DeGeneres is …W O W!!

I have so much to Offer, I’mReady to Volunteer for YOU…Give me a Shot..;O)


So here I am looking at everyday as a means to have a better future, one with meaning and worth. I know I have worth its just that some days when my health is on the downside, things don’t seem as rosy and bright. I’ve been at a crossroad lately where I’m struggling with the person I use to be. The one I was striving to become in an industry I know I was meant to be in. I still have so much Passion inside my HEART and head that wants to just get out. . I now suffer in silence!
I struggle because I can’t just go out and get what I want like I could have in the past. Being afflicted with my “issue” as I like to call it one day I can be fine and the next NOT! I have a HUGE wish and hope that I will one day before I die get to volunteer/intern with someone in the preparations of NYFW. I know if I was never stricken with this “issue” that I would have in some way shape or form gotten to experience that. I was always told I had a gentle but cautious spirit, not gullible and I had a great head on my shoulders. These character traits helped me deal with the people you encounter in such a Competitive Industry. It got me to the places I wanted to go, be who I wanted to be and help me make it through difficult situations less scathed. I’m trusting but not Stupid! Fashion was and always will be my passion in life. I didn’t want to be a top model I was content with where my life was at that moment. I enjoyed the traveling, the people I met and the creations I got to wear designed by very talented people. I loved doing work in the showrooms and shows because I got to interact with others. I have always had a creative side and a Great knack with people. I’ve always been very outgoing with a personable personality when modeling Designers/Companies would ask if I wanted to rep their lines. I took that as a great compliment. I love People and the stories behind what make them tick, where they’ve been, how they got there, their culture, beliefs, their struggles and triumphs, what drives them, the good with the bad. I felt very fortunate to have the life I was leading Then, IIIIIIIIIRRRRRRRRRRKKKKKKK, CRASH, POW!!! OVER, DONE, KAPUT, FINE!! And here I am 24yrs later and it’s like suffering a tragic loss! The loss being the life I had and the person I was before it was so RUDELY interrupted by a million and one god forsaken illnesses. The main jolt of a Quazillion volts of electricity, that being the Major Stroke that paralyzed me…Life, ya I was still alive but not living the life I knew. While I was a guinea pig for 31 days in UCLA & they were trying to figure out why someone so young & healthy (so we thought at the time) could have been stricken by a stroke, my mom had put up a few of my modeling pictures and places I had traveled to give me Inspiration! I’m telling you she was the only constant in my life from that point on! The Inspiration and Faith of my Godly mother! I’m ONLY alive today because of her! Well, and for the fact that I don’t think God is ready for me either. I keep telling myself there must be something I’m suppose to accomplish in this life still or He would have taken me the times I had flat-lined. So, GOD I’M ASKING YOU TO PLEASE MAKE IT APPARENT TO ME WHAT I SHOULD BE DOING WITH THE TIME THAT YOU HAVE ME HERE. Maybe it’s just the mere fact that I’m a person whose been stricken with horrible situations AND illness in her life but is an example to others on how to stay happy, positive and carry on even when I don’t feel like it. I’m the person I am today because of ALL I have gone through. I may have disabilities, but my disabilities do not define the person I AM! I love people see me as their inspiration don’t get me wrong, I’m thankful to still be here and it’s very fulfilling to know just talking about a few of my “issues” is helpful to others. I’m just finding it rough because I miss that feeling of being Productive.   Anyway, I do know

it’s very hard for those who don’t deal with the everyday issues of illness and pain to understand. Even more so for those who have no knowledge of my disability and just know me as the person I am on the outside VERY OUTGOING AND POSITIVE AND WITH THE DRIVE I HAD PRE-ILLNESS. I have an aching desire, want and need to be that someone I felt I was going to be before my life Ended so abruptly even if only for a day.

After having my strokes I can’t do the things I once could and I’ve accepted that. I no longer have the memory I once did and ability to understand things. I’ve accepted that. I tried to go to college and work again but it didn’t pan out because I ended up in the hospital AGAIN and Again. I’ve accepted that also.
So I guess what my main goal for now is to Accept that it is what it is!!

Sorry for the ramblings, the venting, blah, blah, blah…but it’s kind of like therapy!

Through it all I’m still SMILING…All because of YOU!

(I ) Don’t worry about yesterday it’s gone. (I) Don’t fret over tomorrow it’s not here yet. (I) Just concentrate on NOW, live for TODAY, this MOMENT!

…<3 God …<3 Life …<3 Fashn …<3 Fun

Julia Roberts Won’t Miss Ellen’s Birthday! – The Ellen DeGeneres Show

Julia Roberts Won’t Miss Ellen’s Birthday! – The Ellen DeGeneres Show.